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it's time for a new journal.
you'll find me here: cigaretteboats.
"stale as a two day half-full beer, cigarette boats float around in here"
- as you were [alkaline trio] if you were wondering.
it's going to be friends only for a while.
byebye. =) ♥
P.S. if you're already added, that means i read your journal &i kept you. if i didn't add you, i don't read your journal. if you really want me to re-add you, comment &tell me why.
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[03 Mar 2005|02:13pm] |
i have racked up so many absences at school. my mom took me out at noon today because preston was sick and she has to work til 4.30.
my mom is planning on moving to florida, within like 3-4 months i guess. i would be moving in with rachel, which would be awesome.
yesterday me, nathan, dave and rachel went out to rachel's old neighborhood and went to her friend sarah's dad's gorgeous house, and to her friend jason's house, with an indoor swimming pool and hot tub. i felt so poor. i hope nathan and i can have a house that nice one day. we got in a big arguement, but everything is fine now i suppose. i'm re-dying my hair. same colors.
i don't work this saturday! that's a first. one month &13 days til my birthday. =)
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[27 Feb 2005|12:44am] |
seven months [yesterday] since it's after 12am. ♥
the great bamboozle = alkaline trio, bouncing souls! may 1st, asbury park, nj. anyone going? nathan &i are. anyone is welcome to come, but you better help pay for gas; it's 600miles away.
i'm tired. time for bed.
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[25 Feb 2005|09:04am] |
yesterday i went to ryan's and hung out with him, nathan, derek, another derek, and chris. i watched them play halo, but before everyone got there, it was just me, ryan and nathan. we sat around and ryan picked on me like old times. i missed him so much. i'm so happy we're friends again.
then nathan &i went to the talent show at seven. it was pretty good. i got to do an announcement for someone and nathan came onstage with me. i didn't get booed to death, and i was shocked because i know most people at my school don't care for me. so that was nice. we left during back to plan b because nathan wanted to. everyone did real good, weird to say, but someone who i'm not close to looked really nice, [cute], and.. yeah. afterwards, nathan &i went by his house, got gift certficates for burger king, then i dropped him off at his car at ryan's and went to rachel's. he picked us up and we went to burger king with him, and wendy's. came back to rachel's. watched romy &michele's high school reunion, and i fell asleep. i woke up to nathan calling me to take me out to breakfast, and rachel having pierced her lip, hoping her mom won't kill her. we went to the village place coney island, &i got strawberry pancakes. mmm. then we got in a huge fight, blah blah blah, and he's texting me telling me to "break his fucking heart in person", as if i'd break up with him. i never would, but it's this ongoing issue of me talking to anyone who is a male and him not trusting me. it's ridiculous.
i get my ring back today! &southland mall with metalhead dave today.
saturday 9-5
sunday 12-7 = my work schedule.
any suggestions on what anyone thinks would be a good class song?
DO NOT say graduation by vitamin C because i HATE that song, or good riddance by greenday because every class uses it. any suggestions though?
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| to ryan |
[23 Feb 2005|11:52am] |
yesterday i'm with nathan and ryan calls him six times. he missed the calls so he calls him back, and i'm thinking "something must've happened". and it did. Krystal broke up with ryan. they were dating for like, 2 1/2 years [correct me if i'm wrong, ryan] because she doesn't feel the same i guess? and ryan's brother got dumped like, the day before valentine's day. so i feel really bad for ryan, and his brothrt james, that they have to go through this. nathan is really upset becausr they are like his brothers, and he thinks i'm going to jump on the bandwagon and dump him, but i wouldn't do that. anyway, ryan and i made peace, which makes me really happy, maybe we can actually be friends now. anyway, ryan, i'm so sorry to hear about everything bad that's going down, and i'm here for you. i made this post just for you.
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other news:
i'm home from school because i was too tired to get up. kick assssss.
MAY FUCKING FIRST= alkaline trio, bouncing souls, flogging molly, my chemical romance in asbury park, new jersey, for bamboozle fest. nathan and i are SO going. ryan, you're going too, if you want to. i'll help pay for it.
hell yeah.
i have senioritis like whoa, i can't make it through a whole day hardly. the minutes go by so slow. i can't wait to fucking graduate.
one month &21 days til i'm 18!
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[19 Feb 2005|01:21am] |
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so, nathan and i are staying the night at rachel's tonight. it's awesome; i love rachel.
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( all this time lingers undefined )
another day i couldn't handle at school, so i came home.
fuck print tech and the stupid press machines.
i'm going to pick up nathan and go cuddle. and maybe do my taxes.
only a month left of being cold.
i'm planning on going to manhattan, new york, for spring break. anyone have any idea how much a hotel is?
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yesterday, sadie got junked. it was most definitely the worst expierience of my life. my mom said she forbid me to follow the tow truck to the junkyard, but i did anyway. nathan was with me, and i cried the whole way there. took pictures, too. we got there, and it is the SHITTIEST place ever. i've never seen a place so disgusting. it was raining, and the guy working there did not give a shit about my car at all, i asked what he was going to do with it and he said "probably crush it", which only made me cry harder. i stood in the rain for about ten minutes, looking at sadie and all the other sad cars. and then i sat in her for the last time ever. i kept a visor, my rearview mirror, my gas cap, and the ceiling- anyone who has been in my car knows that everyone wrote all over the ceiling, so i saved that. i cried so hard for so long. and i don't care how stupid anyone thinks it is.
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| valentine's day! |
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yesterday was so awesome. valentine's day! i only went to school for two hours, then came home &took a shower, hung out with my mom, went shopping, then got ready to go out with nathan. he took me to bahama breeze for dinner. it was an awesome restaurant, and expensive. then we drove around, and eventually ended up at the top of the parking structure in wayne [on wayne & michigan ave], where he proposed to me. it was really beautiful; we were looking out over the city, and the clock chimed at eight o clock, when he asked. the ring is so beautiful. i have to get it sized soon, but it takes 10 days. afterwards, we went by my house and then to rachel's. he stayed over there with me and we slept, and then went and got us burger king at like midnight. he left at about 12.30a, and apparently his keys got taken away because he "came home so late". but i told him he can borrow my car if he wants to. so, my valentine's day was amazing. ♥
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nathan &i had plans to hang out. i come home, &i call him because i'd rather him pick me up; i don't feel like driving over there. so what happens? he tells me he has a college meeting at specs howard until FIVE THIRTY. he asked me to come over last night, and said it again this morning and now this? he went to specs howard on saturday to take some test, and HE DOESN'T EVEN WANT TO GO THERE. he told me. and he's going to waste his gas just to go? probably just because ryan is?
he wants us to live together, &we're not even talking about any plans or anything. i haven't done anything for college because i wanted to discuss everything with him first, but whatever, i see what's important to him.
UGH.
oh, &my mom finally got a job doing telemarketing or something at 11mile road and franklin. $10/hr, 35 hours a week. i'm happy for her.
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[07 Feb 2005|08:17am] |
yesterday- bubble tea in ann arbor with emily, rachel, stefan &shannon. i stayed the night at rachel's on saturday night; nathan was really sick &wasn't allowed to do anything. he stayed home from school today. i made him soup last night &bought him a dr. pepper slurpee.
today is going too slow. i'm so tired. i'm going to nathan's after school.
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[05 Feb 2005|04:16pm] |
i got pulled over today. because i was trying to avoid it. but i didn't get a ticket.
uh, anyway, i was only scheduled to work four and a half hours this week, &when i went into work, they told me I wasn't even on the schedule; i guess dave came in &changed it. whatthefuck. so i worked an hour and forty minutes. i am going to be so broke, it's retarded.
i'm probably staying the night at rachel's tonight.
my car still shuts off when i drive. i swear, every car i touch turns to shit. what the hell.
going to get dressed since i just took a shower, then off with nathan.
7348912042. xoxo
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this week has been good &bad. good because i got a car, got to spend a lot of time with nathan [not like that's unusual] &bad because on tuesday night, i got in a fight with my mom &she kicked my brother &i out-- i almost had nowhere to go. nathan's parents wouldn't let me stay there, so i ended up calling my mom &begging her to let me come home because otherwise i would have slept in my car. everything is okay now though; i guess. or as "okay" as it gets.
i have self [working out &weightlifting] 4th hour &gym 6th hour. my legs &stomach are killing me, but i guess that's a good thing because i'm fat and i need it.
in other news, i'm not vegan anymore. sorry. if you're going to comment and say a ton of shit about it, don't. because i'll ban you from leaving comments. it was my decision and i chose it.
wayne road BK is closing on march 1st for remodeling. i'm probably going to go back to merriman. hear that, ryan? maybe you won't hate me by then.
today is nathan's halo 2 day &my nap day because i'm dying from not sleeping. at seven, i have to go to his house so he can shoot his movie for voc tech, because i'm in it.
i have about five minutes til i have to go to self. horray. my brandnew hoodie got stolen yesterday. if i see someone wearing it, i'll kill them.
report cards today. i think i did okay.
i only work saturday 11-3.30. so if anyone wants to hang out, or have a sleepover on friday since nathan has plans, give me a call.
two months &thirteen days til my birthday. !
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i got a new car. 1992 mercury grand marquis. holla ♥
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[29 Jan 2005|12:35am] |
tonight was beautiful, for sure.
downtown ann arbor to eat at earthen jar, then by stucci's for sorbet.
back to nathan's house for a candlelit bubble bath, rose petals included.
downstairs, to his room.
then we went to sleep.
i have an amazing boyfriend.
work tomorrow 10am-6pm. UGH; too much work. i better get off early.
then sunday 8 - 4.15. of course.
sunday = allen is putting my car cd player in the truck. for FREE. what a nice guy.
i'm hungry.
sex in the city --> food --> bed.
♥
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| memory will rust, erode into lists.. |
[27 Jan 2005|05:41pm] |
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call me stupid, call me whatever you want..
but i'm going to get my car fixed if i can come up with the money.
it's six hundred. i'm trying so hard to get a second job so i can. i love my car and i don't ever want to drive anything else.
nathan is with his friends. i miss him.
i got our pictures back from cleveland. in black &white. they're gorgeous.
still haven't found anything to do. so it's either:
sit around and watch sleepover, and sex &the city,
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someone awesome wants to hang out.
how can you say you'd give someone everything and then just turn around and give it to someone else? i don't understand you. [this is not to nathan]
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[27 Jan 2005|03:07pm] |
okay, so, no school tomorrow.
SOMEONE COME SPEND THE NIGHT. i am SO bored.
pee ess. i have the internet again. dial up, so i won't be on too much. but i do have it.
call me. i'll pick you up. 734 891 2042.
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| six months of love |
[26 Jan 2005|07:29am] |
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today is nathan & i's six months!
he picked me up this morning &took me out to breakfast. as soon as i got in his car, he said "I have to get something out of the backseat" &handed me a dozen red roses. he's so cute.
i have no idea what he has planned for today. i'm sure it will be amazing though. ♥
i can't believe it's already been six months. I don't think i've ever celebrated a continuous six months with someone before. this is so special.
i'm going up to john glenn &leaving a rose on his car while he's at school, since i get out at 11.30. shh.
we're celebrating more on friday too- with a bubble bath &stuff. since we can't do that around his parents.
nothing is going to ruin my day.
texts from him this morning:
1. i love you too. these 6 months have been the best. today is the day lovers write romances into the historybooks.
2. you made tears come to my eyes. i love you forever, we'll have a great time tomorrow. goodnight fiance.
♥ !!
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[25 Jan 2005|06:23am] |
i gave nathan his car back two days ago. i'm now driving my brother's truck. it's RIDICULOUS. i hate trucks. i tried to find a picture, but it's too old so i guess no one has any. seriously, on the cover of the book about it, there's a man and a woman, standing in a field. it was taken in like the SEVENTIES. it's retarded.
SADIE I MISS YOU. she's parked in front of my house. people are telling me to get a second opinion about her, because i'm a girl and the repair guys want to rip me off.
so, uh.. emily &i have been having problems. i hope things are okay; i'm not sure.
i get out at 11.30 today- all week. it's exams week.
my grades should be like this:
0 - 1st hour - print tech - D [63%]
2nd hour - marketing - C [78%]
3rd hour - computer studies - D [66%] [which i can still raise &am going to]
4th hour - modern conflicts - C [64%]
5th hour - concert choir - A [i don't know the [percent]
6th hour - health & swim - C [70%]
7th hour - co-op/work experience - i have NO idea. i hope i got a B.
i'm going to get my ass kicked.
yesterday i redyed my hair &i dyed nathan's! it looks excellent. there's a chunk of red in the front, the back is tipped in red, and there's a red streak on top. that's how he wanted it &it turned out great.
i miss lindsay. are you ungrounded yet?
my new goal is to have a new car by my 18th birthday [less than three months] april 16th.
i'm tired. i'm going to go home, go out to lunch with my brother, take a hot bath, watch sex &the city, &wait for nathan to come pick me up because i'm scared to drive the truck. notice i call it THE truck, not mine. no one can ever replace Sadie. ♥
work schedule:
saturday 10am - 6pm
sunday 8am - 4.15pm
call me omg.
i need a new job. any ideas, anyone?
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all i feel like doing recently is sleeping. i hope nothing is wrong with me.
so. nathan &i's six months is next wednesday. we're celebrating on saturday though. i'm going to bring over rose petals &floating candles, &we're going to go out to a nice dinner. i'm excited. ♥
all i've been hearing about at school all week is STDs. some girl came into the chorus class &talked about it, &the school is having a play about it all week. everyone in this school is a slut and probably has aids. there are a ton of pregnant girls, and all these 14 &15 yr olds who have had like, 36356+ partners. it's sick.
i went to look at the '97 tracer yesterday. the engine makes a really weird noise, but it's a cute car. there's a ton of cute cars there for really cheap, at telegraph auto sales.
on the way back, nathan &i went to southland mall for a while. went back to his house, ate some spaghetti his parents made, &then i went to sleep. i think me sleeping over there is pissing him off because I always do. I don't mean to.. i just lay down, &i'm out.
things to do today:
find nathan a heater & a nightlight
find someone who can install a car cd player for free or cheap. anyone?
get dressed. [i'm a faggot. i'm wearing pjs, frog slippers, and carrying around a pillow &blanket. i swear, i'm five years old again.]
get a disposable camera to photograph Sadie.
why am i so fascinated with other people's lives? why does theirs seem so glamorous and mine completely blows? i'm the plague, and i have no friends, i'm poor, and my job sucks. why can't something awesome happen to me?
i wish winter would end. too cold, and too goddamn depressing.
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my car died. it is dead. the timing belt is broke. it's $600 to fix.
good bye, my love.
i came home from school early and cried for like three hours. i'm so attached to that car. laugh all you want. I FUCKING LOVE MY CAR. it's my freedom, it's my independence, it's mine. and now it's dead. i'm wearing my keys around my neck, forever. i'm also taking a whole roll of film and putting the pictures on a posterboard titled "my first love".
i love you, sadie. I LOVE YOU.
( sadie g )
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[18 Jan 2005|10:17am] |
the weekend was okay. saw lindsay on thursday. emily &i went to the airport.
nathan got a nice couch for his basement. it took forever to get it downstairs, but it looks great.
yesterday i hung out with matt. it would have been our three years. crazy. we went to ann arbor. he hated the food at earthen jar but that's okay. we had a really fun day.
we were like the only school in michigan that had school on martin luther king jr. day. i didn't go.
i have a HUGE paper due tomorrow. i'm almost done. haha.
oh, &i'm still driving nathan's car. mine is in the shop; has been for four days. &they haven't looked at it. i'm scared for them to.
my paid account expires tomorrow. =( i'll renew it when i can i guess. since i don't have a debit/credit card. i'm so poor it's retarded.
i'm tired. i want to go to nathan's &sleep. ♥ maybe i will. after i finish that goddamn paper.
i seriously need a new job.
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[13 Jan 2005|07:02am] |
today i'm doing better. i fucking flipped out yesterday;; i know.
worked; went to nathan's. tickled each other &kissed. it was very cute.
today = nathan. what a suprise. he has to go to work with his mom though, so if anyone wants to hang out til like 4.30 i'm free.
tomorrow- ann arbor maybe? anyone want to go? call me.
at work, we tried to figure out what's wrong with my car. it might be that i have no antifreeze, since my heat was coming out cold &it was like, overheating. if i had more money i'd go buy some, but i'm so poor it's retarded. my mom doesn't have money for the house payment, STILL doesn't have a job.
it was so nice out this morning, but it's going to get cold again.
my brother came back to school today for the first time this week.
i love ( emily ) &i'm going to be a better friend.
JUST SKEET IT.
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i'm FUCKING TIRED. FUCK SCHOOL.
okay, i slept last hour.
SERIOUSLY, THE NEXT PERSON IN THERE WHO FUCKING THROWS POP BOTTLES, PAPER BALLS, AND STEALS MY SHOES- I'M GOING TO GET UP AND HIT YOU IN THE FACE. FUCKING QUIT. GROW THE FUCK UP, CUNTS.
what a FUCKING day. i swear.
STILL don't have my car. it STILL won't start. i'm still driving nathan's.
i got my hair cut yesterday. just a little shorter. i like it. emily thinks i copied hers but i just basically told the girl i wanted it trimmed. i've had short hair for over three years, before having a dyke spike was trendy. so whatever. so much FUCKING DRAMA.
if you're going to fight with me on/about/at the internet / high school, FORGET IT. i hate both &i'm no longer wasting my FUCKING TIME.
i work today 5- 10. if they're smart, they won't put me on drivethru because i doubt i can stay calm. i'm sure i'll throw something at someone or scream at them. I HATE FAST FOOD. GO HOME AND COOK YOUR OWN.
everything is fucking frustrating me, i swear.
i started watching sex &the city last night. it's pretty good;i like it.
i swear, if i had the gas, my car, &the money, i'd drive away &never come back so i don't have to deal with everyone's SHIT anymore.
UGH. DIE.
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[11 Jan 2005|10:22am] |
we have no idea what's wrong with my car. help. it's stuck at family video.
nathan's grounded from his for two weeks, so i'm driving his.
I FUCKING LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. FUCK ANYTHING I SAID THAT MADE YOU THINK I DIDN'T. YOU WISH YOURS WAS AS FUCKING AWESOME AS MINE IS. ♥
fuck the snow.
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[10 Jan 2005|10:56pm] |
seriously, when i thought shit couldnt get any worse..
My fucking car breaks down. I HATE MY LIFE.
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[10 Jan 2005|09:39am] |
this is supposed to be the best year of my life.
everything was SO good up until chrismas break. i don't understand why and how everything changes so fast. the last months of summer were awesome, i hate school and even this schoolyear has been awesome up until xmas break. i finally felt like i belonged somewhere; i had real friends. i felt like the friends i had then were the friends i'd always have. and that's all gone. everything with nathan and i was perfect, and now that's gone too. all we do is fight. we almost broke up numerous times over the weekend. he has serious psychological issues that are just now coming out, and it scares me to be around him. i don't want to be scared of the person i'm in love with, and i am.
last night was a disaster. first, i was held way over at work when i had to get to detroit. took nathan's car because i doubt mine would make it. i felt like shit all night, &when nathan asked me what was wrong i said i didn't want to talk about it and he thought i told him to fuck off, which i didn't, so he said "fuck you" and walked away. i was by myself for most the show, except for a little while with jaron. i called matt &talked to him for a half hour, because i needed someone to talk to. ryan tried to tell me i was taking nathan away from him, and completely denied our friendship right in front of me, and that put me over the edge, so i tried to get up and run away &nathan held onto me, and i pushed him against a wall and hit him in the face, i guess. it was an accident, but he held me there and i tried to get away because i couldn't handle ryan saying that shit because i consider him one of my good friends. i seriously can't keep friends anymore. if lindsay or emily decide not to be my friends, i wouldn't be suprised either.
when rise against played "swing life away", i came down from the balcony &stood near nathan. i was about two or three people to his left, and he "didn't see me". i didn't want to bother him, i wanted him to come to me. everyone was with their boyfriend or girlfriend, and i was alone. his friends hate me, i know.
i really need to get away. from everything. i'm fucking depressed. i'm tryng to stay positive, but it's really difficult when nothing is positive.
i don't care if anyone that reads this thinks it's bullshit, or stupid, or whatever. it's my journal. the way things are, for the most part, is my fault. you don't like it, don't read it, assholes. ♥
i'm living on very few hours of sleep. it will be like this all week, due to me starting school at 6.20 and working all weekend.
i'm doing my chorus final on friday. it's a solo. scary, i guess.
i get paid today. my mom gets paid today. GET A JOB, MOM. STOP TAKING MY MONEY. FUCK OFF.
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[07 Jan 2005|10:12am] |
snow day consisted of:
waking up at 10. chores. going to nathan's at 12. food. sex. cuddling. going home at four; my grandma came over. eating dinner. nathan went to ryan's. opened presents; got $25. picked up emma &went to the mall. got sexy lingerie, by request. came back to my house, then took emma home at 10pm.
i have today off. = a nice dinner with nathan [he's taking me out] &back to his house. get someee.
oh, &our 6 months is in 19 days. i'm so stoked. ♥
saturday = off. if you have something amazing you want to do, call or comment &it'll be done.
sunday i work 8-4.15, then rise against with the explosion, a wilhelm scream, &most precious blood. ! i'm excited. it's me, emily, &rachel possibly. i have two open seats, so if anyone wants to go, let me know. tickets are $16.35. nathan is going with ryan &james.
that's all.
xxx
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snow day tomorrow! Hell yeah. ♥
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| ..ya gotta fuck it up.. |
[05 Jan 2005|07:04am] |
okay, so, i guess i lost one of my best friends and one of my good friends. but i can't do anything about it now. all i can do is apologize for what i've done, and i know myself, nathan &lindsay are all sorry. if you would give me another chance, i would be so happy, but i doubt it so thats okay i guess.. but can i have my stuff back at least?
i'm so sick of all the drama of high school. i know i cause it. but i'm sick of it anyway. i wish everyone could get along.
i'm so sorry. really. i know it means nothing now, but i am. i wish you two would understand that.
yesterday was spent with my love, going with him to the doctor's, then picking up metalhead dave &emily &going to denny's. trying to figure out who told. but it doesn't matter because .. because. it's over with now i guess. except i feel like i'm going to get my ass kicked, which isnt a very nice feeling but whatever.
i work 5 - 10 today. come visit me.
hopefully there will be enough snow to a. send us home early or b. have a snow day tomorrrow. my car doesn't handle snow well.
"isn't it weird when you're not friends with your friends anymore?"
i remember when he told me that he was so happy we became best friends. and that the friends he has now will be the friends he has forever. it's kind of weird writing this when he's across the room. but i just want him to know how much that meant to me. even though i fucked it up.
i got to see lindsay yesterday. i'm getting her an application for my work so she can get a job with me. that would be awesome.
i'm not allowing comments on this. just read, and think. & think. &think. &understand. that i'm sorry.
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[04 Jan 2005|10:25am] |
read it.
i concur.
i love my fiance. ♥
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[04 Jan 2005|09:37am] |
when i said i wished for a better boyfriend, i take it back. i love nathan so much &i'm the imperfect one, not him. everything with us is okay and is going to always be okay.
today i think i'm hanging out with my girls- emily, mandi &rachael. who knows what we're doing, but it'll be fun.
i'm so hungry. i want my sandwitch and chex mix.
i'm trying to keep the alex thing off my mind. he went home, so at least i don't have to see him &feel like shit even more.
i'm trying to be positive.
kayleigh- let's hang out soon. i'll call you. what days are you free?
rise against, most precious blood, the explosion & a wilhelm scream this sunday @st. andy's. with nathan, &probably ryan, emily &rachel. i'm excited.
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[03 Jan 2005|10:34pm] |
im realizing what a shitty girlfriend and friend i am
&i want to sincerely apologize to everyone ive hurt by
being this way. alex- i cried over your decision for
like two hours. I love you, Youre the only guy best
friend ive ever known. All im asking is that you give
me one more chance. I promise Ill change. I know im
asking a lot but please.. &to everyone else, im so
sorry. please, just one more chance..
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yesterday i went to media play &denny's with lindsay, clayton, carly &carly. clayton &carly [howard] sat alone together. lindsay's mom called &she's grounded from everything, again. i hate her mom for doing this to her. =(
in other news, nathan has five days to fix everything. new year's eve was a big mess. i'm not even going to go there.
i'm back at school, hence the updating from something other than my phone. i hate school. drama, drama, drama.
alex is mad at me &i hate it. i hate when people are mad at me. alex, please forgive me. <3 =(
nathan's taking me to panera after school. he's skipping school. what a fucking rebel. he's going to get groundeddddd. tonight's the last night of night school.
i wish i had:
a really nice car
warm weather
money
i was graduated already
more sleep
a perfect boyfriend
i can dream, right?
i have a thirty page paper due december nineteenth. i will finish it and get an A. uh huh.
call me this week. i work wednesday 5-10 &sunday 8-4.15.
734 891 2042.
stay true.
xo xxx
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[31 Dec 2004|11:48am] |
tonight im having a new years party thing. Uh, no
drinking though. &if any one needs a designated
driver, please call me. Ill come get you, no matter
where you are. 734 891 2042. Happy new years everyone! ♥
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[30 Dec 2004|10:04am] |
im going shopping with nathan. we got the cutest
photobooth pictures in cleveland.
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[30 Dec 2004|09:36am] |
my mom woke me up to go pick her up, then said she
didnt need me to. Who wants to go out to breakfast?
Comment or call me &ill come get you. 734 891 2042.
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[28 Dec 2004|07:06am] |
im leaving for cleveland with nathan &his family in an
hour. !!
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| anniversary!
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[27 Dec 2004|01:04am] |
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today (the 26th) was nathan &is five months. !!
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[26 Dec 2004|12:24pm] |
i can update from my phone now. ! i work wednesday,
saturday &sunday. Who wants to hang out? &im probably
going to cleveland with nathan on tuesday til
wednesday night. K thats all.
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[24 Dec 2004|04:34pm] |
i'm at my mom's boyfriend's sister's house. blah blah blah.
christmas is tomorrow. i'm excited ¬. i'll be with nathan &his family.
i've been grounded so far over break. a lot of family shit, etc.
call me if you want to.
sorry i don't have the internet to update more.
merry christmas, everyone! ♥
&happy new year next week. =)
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[17 Dec 2004|09:49am] |
since i don't have the internet at home, i probably won't be able to update for two weeks.
call me if you want to hang out. seriously, don't be scared. 734 891 2042. or home - 734 838 0004.
i work 3.30 - 7.15 today. laaammme. &i work all weekend.
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[15 Dec 2004|10:17am] |
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[09 Dec 2004|10:15am] |
i made a new private journal.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) defraininator
if you want me to add you, leave a comment there.
but i'm not adding everyone. so if i don't add you, don't get pissed. you'll get over it.
xo.
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[09 Dec 2004|07:10am] |
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MY CAR IS DEAD.
last night when emily &i went to pick up kayleigh at her boyfriend's friend's house [sean], it wouldn't start. his dad thinks it's either the fuel injector or the fuel pump.
MY CAR IS IN YPSILANTI, FAR AWAY FROM ME. OH MY GOD. SADIE. SADIE SADIE SADIE. COME BACK.
i seriously sat on my car, crying, and apologizing for not taking better care of her. ugh ugh ugh.
i have to call around noon to see if she's fixed &how much it is. plus the $30 towing fee.
nathan let me borrow his car. what a fucking AWESOME boyfriend. i love him so much.
today is a me &nathan day.
dante wore my straight edge shirt yesterday. haha.
anyone that can do ANYTHING to help me pay for my car.. it would be the best xmas present ever.
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[07 Dec 2004|01:24pm] |
happy birthday, jaron♥
GETT SOMMEEE.
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